The name of the blog should tell you all. The person that I am crazy about, that left me and moved away five states, totally moved back. And I could never be happier. He is just so amazing to me, and I can't even explain it. I don't know how he does this to me, but he makes me fall all over everyday. Well, the other blog, says I wonder who he'd be today, and if we'd be together. Well, we are, and it's the best time of our lives, and we don't plan on it ending anytime soon. I finally showed him the other blog, he read it all, and he cried. I asked him "Baby, why are you crying?" and he said "cause when I left, I didn't realize what I was leaving behind." He told me he had the chance to stay, and I asked him why he didn't stay, and he said he was too worried about himself and didn't think or care about anyone else. Makes me feel great, right? Lol, no worries though, we're great now and all of that matters. Well, the night he came back, I almost ended it that night. That would have been the biggest mistake of my life. He sent me a text saying "wats up" from a number I didn't know, but for some odd reason, I felt it was him, and boy oh boy was it him. I never want him to leave me again, and I hope I never have to leave him. If we never were stupid and broke up all the million times we did, our two year would be coming up soon. How amazing would that have been. He keeps telling me that there will come a time, that I will leave his arms, because he's so afraid he won't be able to hold on to me. But what he doesn't realize is, I feel the same way. I feel like there will be a time that he will leave my arms. I'm always so afraid that he's gonna go away again, and that it will be for good this time, and not half a year. And I know for a fact that my little heart will not be able to deal with that. He IS my first real true love. I've seen a lot of hurt and a lot of pain in my life. That's all I used to have. But then he came, and all I see now is happiness, trust, love, romance, and joy. No hurting and no more pain. We used to fight and break up and make up and go back out, and just do the same process all over again. Well, we have grown up a lot, and we've both matured. We've both realized what we need in life- eachother. And that's all we'll ever need. Many people would think we're crazy thinking we're in love at the age of 15, but we know that we are, and we don't need anyones approval to be happy or to be in love. It's something the heart knows, and our hearts have the same beat, and they feel the same thing. Yeah, we're human and we make mistakes, but we forgive eachother, because that's what you do. I've always been told negitive things in my life, that I was too fat, or not smart enough, or I just wasn't fit to do what I wanted to do. Until I met this guy, I'd probably keep thinking I could never do what I want to do. But he believes in me, and he tells me I can do anything I set my heart too, and I believe him. I used to feel so alone, and then he came. And I wasn't so alone, I have everything when I have him. I've got everything I've ever needed, wanted, or wished for. I wish on 11:11 everyday because he always reminds me, and it's just so great. My wishes always come true because of him. He is so amazing. Well, the ending to my last blog was about wanting to hear "I love you" for one last time. Don't tell me goodbye. I never wanna hear it.
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